.

2012-01-24T01:41:00.001+08:00

I have a dream,
Even if I’m thrown away or ripped to shreds
Deep in my heart I have a dream as precious as gem
If by chance, without a reason,
Somebody ridicules me behind my back
I should be patient I would wait just for that day.
As you always worry, You say that foolish dreams are poisonous.
Just like a book that tells us about the end of the world
There’s the reality that we can’t turn back already

Yes I have a dream.
I believe in that dream
Please watch over me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate
I can firmly face it
One day I will pass over that wall and be able to fly as high as the sky
This heavy thing called life can’t tie me down
At the end of my life,
on the other day that I can smile, let’s be together

2012-01-01T00:21:00.001+08:00

因為不敢太幸福所以我更珍惜現在就擁抱彼此不要再分離請你感受這次我愛的勇氣相不相信說幾萬次也說不膩愛你

2011-11-28T23:37:00.001+08:00

I have a weak heart, I get really lonely too
Sometimes, I cry by myself too
Because I'm a fool, I only know one thing
Even though I know how to give love, I don't know how to throw it away

I have many thorns so I have a lot of scars
Can you still hug me, who is like this?
I want to lean against you in your embrace
I want to believe in my love that I kept throwing away, once again

Because I have many tears, because I fear love
I can't take a step toward you although you are in front of me
If you really love me, run to me and hug me
I can't see because I have many tears

I have many secrets, so there are a lot of lies too
Even if I'm this way, do you understand?
I want to erase, I want to turn it back
I want to forget the past love that deceived and deceived me, once again

The wind is blowing and I softly close my eyes
I feel your fragrance
Where are you? Are you looking at me?
I want it , I want you

Because tears overflow, because my fear for love overflows
I don't recognize you although you're right in front of me
If you really love me, run to me and hug me
I can't see because I have many tears

With your hands, wipe away my tears

2011-11-17T17:18:00.001+08:00

It's been sometimes I really wrote you, my dear blog.
Knew that nobody will ever read you again, but, I'll never close you.
You've accompanied me through all emotions I've had.
You've acted like my buddy when no one is there I've could turn to.
Thanks for handling my emotions.

Didn't want to let all the memories fade away,
Though some are just to cruel to be kept hold to.
Life's just like a movie, it always have different parts and situation to be filmed.
Those memories, I'm gotta kept you deep down n acts like a fertilizer for me.

I admit,
I'm blinded by the past,
The memories that should be forgotten by me long ago.
I know it's time I should move on, to a future of unknown.

Who doesn't want to be pampered by others?
Be loves by others?
To accept others love?
Everyone do, including me.
I admit when I'm with my friends, sisters, etc,
When they're with their partners, I do admire, I do hope I was one of them too.
But life doesn't give the same fate to everyone.

Though life differs from others,
I still live my life it is and be happy.
I believe one day I will write out another happy moment of mine, my story that belongs to the unknown.

Right now, let me enjoy whatever I have had.
Be happy and treasures what I have.

Ending,
Your owner,
Hrhuirong ( ^_^)/~~~

2011-11-11T01:57:00.001+08:00

Happy 빼빼로 day!! Shall grab 빼빼로 later!! It will be lovely if only sg celebrate 빼빼로 day too.

2011-11-05T08:25:00.001+08:00

能够哭就好，哭是开始痊愈的象征。

secrets

2011-10-23T18:34:00.001+08:00

How many secrets can a person conceals to spend the whole life skillfully? ❤

2011-10-19T23:16:00.002+08:00

belong to different world and nothing will bound us together
we wont even cross each other boundary
i lay my head down
and lifted my hands up to pray
pray that u will look at me

2011-10-12T18:09:00.001+08:00

【还记得和同桌说的这些话么？】
1.老师来了叫我一声
2.快写抄完给我
3.笔借我用下
4.让我看看（考试时）,你几分啊（试卷发下来后）
5.下一节什么课啊
6.还有几分钟下课啊
7.老师在后面
8.你有吃的没
9.水让我喝口,你别对着嘴啊
10.晚上有啥作业
11.别看,老师在窗户那
12.靠前点,让我出去
13.橡皮！

I'm missing it. School days

2011-09-30T14:58:00.001+08:00

是什么时候开始的？
when did it started and enter?

2011-09-27T00:39:00.003+08:00

成熟就是，不再任性，不再意气用事，为了顾全，委屈自己。违背自己的意愿做很多自己极其不想做的事，不愿做的事。把怨恨化做笑脸，把哀伤凝成妩媚。对于别人来说，成熟的人，是可敬的。对于自己来说，成熟则是可悲的。

in every girl there's a little bit of chanel ♥♥♥

2011-09-10T17:05:00.000+08:00

有人问：分手了那么久还记得你的前一任么？怎么说呢？记得显得太花心，不记得，显得太薄情，其实我觉得，那个人就好比我走路撞上了一个电线杆，很痛，以后我走路都会绕着电线杆走，可能很久以后，我都不记得撞得有多痛了，那个电线杆虽然一直都在，但是只是一根很不起眼的激不起一点兴趣的电线杆而已

2011-09-02T01:23:00.001+08:00

to do but do not force a smile was actually crying is secret

2011-09-02T00:14:00.002+08:00

friend may be what u love, u may just fallen in love into my friend side of view.
and now, we're nothing.

2011-08-18T02:05:00.003+08:00

love doesn't control but rather binds two hearts together thus heartstrings

sometimes i love and laugh, sometimes i cry for love, then i'll be stronger than everything

2011-08-07T15:00:00.004+08:00

stop talking, i hate myself for knowing everything before you even opened your mouth.

i wanted to lie and run away but your two eyes are telling me goodbye.

i finally set my heart to leave and it came to me like a harsh storm.
it might be a fate that will wash away like the rain,
because it was more painful than a fate shattered like glass.
at the end of this walk, I let you know but you wouldn’t know.

stop crying, i hate myself for knowing everything before I get wet with tears.

don’t try too hard to get far away, my body has already broken into pieces just like you wanted.
i can’t go a step closer to you

i was sick with a love fever, the meaning of these tears trickling to my dried lips.
you’ll never know.

2011-08-03T22:12:00.002+08:00

i will, forget you

i will forget you, starting today,
i don’t know you, i have never seen you.
we never even walked pass each other.
im okay, i forgot everything, im happy with my busy life.
ive met great people too.

love is always like this.
it fades away after some time.
can’t even remember it.

when love goes away, another love comes again, it definitely will.
even if it hurts now, it will heal a little later.
it will forget, i will too.

its not difficult, i will forget everything after today.
im just getting used to my changed life.

i will erase everything, i definitely will.
even if tears fall now, i will smile a little later.
i will (now) forget you, just like a wound heals.
i will forget you.

2011-07-14T15:23:00.001+08:00

no feelings.

2011-07-13T01:16:00.000+08:00

awake in the infinite cold.

swept away dust

2011-06-14T13:41:00.003+08:00

with NYP pals having steamboat at bugis

cousin, kelvin's 21st birthday

SFC buddies, whole family portrait

this space has been empty for quite sometime.
guess its time for me to sweep away the dust in this space.

i'll be leaving my current company this month and will be starting a new chapter in life soon.
(hopefully i find something i like to do)
and also, school is starting soon (this month also)
and i've got my admission card from nafa too.
(the photo in my admission card is seriously terrible!!! *regret!)

honestly speaking, i'm in a situation that i've got no idea what i wanted to do.
what i wanted to work as? what i wanted my future to be like.
life suddenly became a tied nod and its hard to untied this nod in life.
normally what we wish for in life, eventually, it will turn out to be something else.
there's so many things running inside this brain of mine,
but most of it are like rubbish?
though its rubbish, but these rubbish just didnt want to get the hell out of my brain.
i have to make myself clear first, rubbish doesnt = past memories. hahah!!

i need a new life. a life that gets me into something that i wanted to do.
a life that will make me feel that im worthily in this world.
i guess i need some good suggestions and nice people around me.

ok, i shall update to here, bye!!

its fun!

2011-05-24T19:25:00.002+08:00

i've bought this!!!
meii and i does the sushin and ramen together.
hahah!!
simply awesome!!
japan!! i love the creative of yours!!

2011-05-11T19:59:00.002+08:00

i know its been kinda late, but still,
im thankful to those who have wished me and send their greetings to me.
thank you so much people (:

recently, weather has been so humid/hot/warm.
please drink more water and do take care,
else you'll ended up like me, having fever right now at this weird weather :/

i've been into wedding video this few weeks. god!!
been searching for artists wedding video and liking their ideas.
recently 范范 & 黑人's wedding is sooooooo grand.
really like both of them max, 10 years of relationship with each other,
and finally, settle down, compromise with each other.
everything is so sweet. really!!

♥♥♥love's in the air ♥♥♥

advance 22

2011-05-01T11:47:00.000+08:00

had a gathering from girls for advance 22.
met them in bugis and had desert buffet (forgotten the resturant name)
80mins of buffet, eat whatever you want,
from pasta to pizza, from sweet desert to chocolate fondue.
take all you want in 80mins.
eat till u're bloated and fly like a balloon ok?

thanks to Mr terence Titus aka Shanlyn bf for taking the photos.

had our prints taking (been a million years since we last took)
us totally became a newbie to the machine.
honestly speaking, i couldnt imagine u took like >100 last time.

received my 1st sunflower ♥
thanks ♥

不再見面
不代表不再對你想念
你是曾經的永遠
會永遠在我身邊

lets break up

2011-04-18T14:08:00.003+08:00

weird things happened all around the world
let's break up?
what's there to break up?
relationship? friendship?
anymore?

life,
this is not the life i want, not the choice i want,
to get back whatever i want,
what should i do?
comments??

你走了，我终寻到属于自己那片难得的安宁。回到过去，回到曾经，回到原点，回到最初的宁静。我们终于落幕，彼此不再纠缠，生活终于归于平淡。我终于明白，我还是那个喜欢安静的孩子，我还是那个不愿意和别人争抢的孩子。我终于明白，我要的只是安宁，我要的只是平淡的一辈子

when there's ...

2011-04-15T22:35:00.001+08:00

when there's no one u can talk to
when there's no one u can turn to
when the closest ones turn into someone who u dont speak to

F.E 3rd Collection ❤

2011-04-12T17:13:00.001+08:00

Hello everybody!!!
F.E will be launching a collection tonight, 12th April 2011 ; 9pm.
Kindly spread the news to all your GFs.

website : http://ferriseffiel.miyoc.com/

hope to see you tonight @ F.E
❤❤❤

since when, used to...

2011-04-06T09:26:00.003+08:00

forgotten since when, i gave up fighting and learn to shut up.
just dont want walk the path that you paved for me,
i just want mine that was created by me, myself.
the pathetic thing is that, i cant even talk to anyone about it.
with almost like half the population outta town/working/mugging/dating/clubbing,
its totally tough to find someone, or worse, anyone, to hang out with.
simply just too busy to even bother with me.
plus, i've been aeroplaned too many times lately.

to be honest, i felt that i have never been a bad friend/sister.
perhaps there are times that people think that im a bad friend/sister,
but nobody in this world is perfect.
i'll always try to be there for those who i do treasure,
being there for them if they need a listening ear, going out with them etc.....
but somehow, i felt that whatever im doing now, its like totally worthless?
not getting the expected treatment that i expect it to be instead, shits is what ive got?

i used to have people who are nice, caring people around me.
they're used to be there.
used to....
since when they left?
since when....

loving you

2011-04-01T14:30:00.002+08:00

taadaa! a box with lyrics,
here it goes,
Loving you is more than just a dream come true.
And everything that I do is out of loving you.
Lalalalala.... Dododododo...

its been 1 week since ive return from malacca.
i wan another getaway. sigh~

dear diary

2011-03-30T16:41:00.002+08:00

dear diary,

so i've been blogging for like 7 years?
since 2004 till now.
i should put it this way, i kept my diary blog for 7 years.
if you want to track back those post in 2004,
sorry to say, i've deleted them in 2009 i guess. hahah!

my dear diary accompanied me through thin and thick just like family and friends.
its only that she's a online friend that i have.
(:

our malacca trip

2011-03-28T20:54:00.003+08:00

i didnt mention that i went over to malacca over the weekends right?
yup, i was away on friday and was back on sunday last week.
just the both us, jaslyn (xin) and i went over malacca alone. (kind of pro luh i think)
took five star coach over (was a 4 hours trip), during the 4 hours,
we chat like nobody business and napped happily without any burden.
alighted and board taxi over to the hotel i've booked.
rest <30mins and we took taxi over to shopping malls.
etc etc etc...

all the yummies foods that we ate for the past 3 days,
i guess there's more, but the both of us didnt really took the photos,
too engross with our shoppings. (paradise know)
im like a puberty kids that needs to eat alot,
keep thinking about eating this, that, those and whatever.

the 2nd day, the both of us went over to their historical places. (i cant say places, cause we didnt really have the time to go over and tour the whole places like christ church etc)
went up to A'Famosa (if im not wronged) LOL!
lots of thoughts went through when we're up there.
its really a relaxing and lovely place to go if you intend to go for a short getaway.
i remembered me saying this when im up there,
世界真的很小.

our memories, photos of us in malacca.
i've enjoyed the 3 days 2 nights in malacca.
i want to go over again soon.
oyah!
if im rich enough, i will like to buy a house over at malacca. ^^v

with lots of loves,
hrhuirong

flea market at scape on 19th mar

2011-03-23T19:34:00.004+08:00

did i mention, last saturday, ling and me were having flea market at scape?
we met and cab down with all the barangs that we have for the flea market.
the moment i went down and was near to her house,
my sandals broke into 2 pieces luh.
what a bad day to start with right? i was telling myself that too.
and we were stuck in a minor jam
i was like tired and at the same time getting panic.
was thinking like, what if we didnt get a good place, etc...
but we're quite lucky, we're late for like 10 mins and still mange to get a place that is at least spacious in my own opinion.

so the 2 of us start unpacking our stuffs and realise that we've forgotten to get ourselves a table cloth.
lucky shan and bf was nearby town, so we called them to get us one if they're manage to.
and taadaa, the girl and her bf didnt let us down.
lydia came down too, and really thanks to her, else the both of us might just starve and die there.

i really enjoy the whole event.
its a good and fun experience. totally in love though its really tiring.
i dont know why, but i really enjoy it or should i put it this way,
im in love with it.
♥

from the bottom of my heart,
i thank those who came down and visit us.
meii, shan & bf, lydia, jewel, xin, jas jie & husband, tien loong, alicia, xin xuan.
if i left out anyone,
still, im thankful that u've came down n visit us.
♥♥♥
if i could hide, i will.
原来我还没忘记，原来我还在意，原来我还很痛。
如果有一天我的心死了，也许我会更好
你曾经说过我走以后希望还能联络。能够聆听彼此的苦乐，to be honest, 我已不能理智对待了。Because everything was a lie.
那些回忆你已经忘了吗?而我却没办法停止播放

anybody?

2011-03-23T17:09:00.001+08:00

is anybody still here with me?

♥ 最重要的決定♥

2011-03-20T02:09:00.000+08:00

♥ 最重要的決定♥

2011-03-20T00:29:00.002+08:00

tears kept falling. this song is totally understatement. my idol, fan fan♥

if i can hide, i will.
i never expect that i will get so affected.
原来我还没忘记，
原来我还很在意。
call me a weakling or whatever.
i admit im not strong and im weak.

i want to resign, boss

2011-03-18T16:30:00.003+08:00

found this online. dont you think the resign letter is cool/funny/creative?
goodness. just imagine someone submit this letter to his/her boss, wonder how will they react.

2011-03-18T09:50:00.003+08:00

Kim Soo Hyun performs “Dreaming” on M! Countdown!! *screaming!!!!!!!!!!!!

mum's birthday

2011-03-16T10:49:00.004+08:00

15th march - my mummy's birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUMMY!!!
had a mini celebration with the whole family at changi village.
ate our "dinner" at 10pm. 10pm!!!!!
despite know its fattening for me to eat at that timing, i still finished a big bowl of rice.

grandparents with their grandsons

sisters with jovis. asked jovian to take with us, but he was tempt by the cake and walk away.
my little nephew jovis ng! he's cute isnt he?
i think its kind of weird, my meii have this baby face with her since she was young till now,
and i have a 老在等face. my god!!!

侄儿jovis n 姑姑huirong

my cousin went over to hongkong last week and he bought me this stitch casing!
and know what, im really in love with this casing, their felt (im not sure what its called luh) on it and its really so nice to touch.
so love with this casing of mine and thanks to my cousin for getting it for me (:

我们不能时时在身边，好像电话短信也没有了
不能第一时间分享彼此的快乐与不快乐，好像变的冷漠沉默了
不能再一起去吃饭一起说说笑笑，好像走出彼此的世界了.
亲爱的你们，离开了校园，就离开了彼此的生活？
其实我很想念你们，你们还好么？

Praying and Hoping

2011-03-15T13:15:00.004+08:00

natural disaster that happen recently is an issue that everyone is looking at now.
recent years, there's been plenty natural disaster that happen round the world.
its really disheartening to hear the news about Japan, earthquake breaks everything apart,
tsunami wipe the entire village away, fire broke out at nuclear plant,
second explosion at nuclear power station, shortage of powers, water and food supplies.
families was torn apart, many life was taken away,
for those who manage to survive, lost their homes, families and everything.

was wondering is there any ways i could at least do my part for japan.
i know i couldnt be there physically for them, but im still thinking is there ways i can help.
and i came to know that Singapore red cross society has begun accepting donations for the victims in Japan.
i'll definitely make my trip down these few days to make cash donation.
i might not be able to donate like a few hundreds, but i hope my little donation will be able to aid them a little in terms of food or future reconstructing of buildings.
i couldnt do much, but thats the min i could do for these victims.
and im praying and hoping that the nightmare stopped asap, no more further damage anymore.

2011-03-11T15:49:00.004+08:00

i havent been feeling well this week.
totally too sick for any activities.
went to see a doctor on monday and was given 2 days mc.
so im back to work on thursday.
i thought that i've got better, but i was so wrong!!!
until today, im still feeling sick.
(i wish i was lying on my bed resting, instead of sitting here like one sick cat)

vomited for a couple of days,
up till just now, i'm still throwing out whatever i ate.
feeling so sick and so tiring.

and worst of all, i even had diarrhea!!
its totally unbearable luh!!
imagine, u have to go toilet like every 5-10 mins?
tell u, you'll definitely feel super duper "energetic" luh,
your leg will definitely "not" get wobbly,
your face will definitely "not get pale and
you'll definitely "love" it. -.-

feeling so exhausted!
not getting well from all this is making me soooooooo worn out!
hate this kind of feeling,
and know what?
my stomach is like a balloon!!!
so bloated like one balloon and its making me hard to breathe!
and its so bloated like im pregnant (maybe like 2 months?)
seriously no joke luh!!!

and when im feeling super not well,
there's stock take tomorrow!!! and its on saturday!!!
MY PRECIOUS WEEKENDS!!!!
and know why i detest stock take so much??
cause its a nobody knows what time it will end stock take.
its super annoying luh!!!
and really annoying when im in such terrible state!

im really praying hard that things will turn out fine tomorrow,
and my body will be in good state.
please allow me to get through this tomorrow with nothing happening.
im feeling super giddy now with a going problematic tummy soon to be cramps.

im hoping that everyone can take at least 1 minute of their time to pray for japan.
theres a 8.9 magnitude quake that strikes Japan,
a 10-METRE tsunami slammed into the coast off the city of Sendai in northeast Japan on Friday after an 8.9-magnitude quake struck offshore.
lets all pray that everybody in Japan will be fine.
LETS ALL PRAY FOR JAPAN PLEASE!

SUPER JUNIOR-M

2011-02-26T00:28:00.001+08:00

SUPER JUNIOR-M 命運線

SUPER JUNIOR-M 幸福微甜

SUPER JUNIOR-M True Love

SUPER JUNIOR-M 表白

SUPER JUNIOR-M 吹一樣的風

SUPER JUNIOR-M 太完美

我的心去整形了

2011-02-24T09:14:00.003+08:00

我的心去整形了
( ^_^)/~~~ hello to my new heart

i hate your eyes,
i hate your lips,
i hate your hugs,
i hate the way you walk,
i hate how you make me smile,
i hate how you don't like me,
and,
i hate how much I like you. do you know teddy sneaker?
OH JEREMY SCOTT x ADIDAS TEDDY BEAR SNEAKER!
WHY ARE YOU SO LOVELY?
WHY ARE YOU SO PRETTY?
BUT WHY ARE YOU OUT OF STOCKS!!!
COME TO MAMA PLEASE!!!
MAMA BEEN FINDING YOU FOR SUCH A LONG TIME!!!
AND WHY ARENT YOU COMING TO ME!!!

any kind soul know where can i get this beside sg?
i know sg is already out of stocks.
is there any other places i can purchase her?
ANY KIND SOUL CAN HELP ME???

fickle mind of mine

2011-02-21T15:58:00.003+08:00

after work, went down to changi airport alone last friday.
(must be saying thinking that im being emo/sad whatever again)
ok, i admit it. i was a little down that day.
hasnt been feeling that well (both mentally and physically)
had been a out-of-tune person for like months? (totally damn it)
cant sing properly and worst of all, even talking itself, the tune is totally madness.
coughing and sneezing like a hedgehog below.

didnt want to go back earlier that day,
i didnt have idea why too,
so waited for my meii since she's working there,
had dinner alone in her store (luckily she's alone working that night)
the one and only blood related meii,
sometimes she really gives me a hard time (vice versa luh)
but still, she's nice! unless she doesnt like you.

took sky-train from T1-T2-T3, back and forth,
lotssss of things has been running around my mind.
and it really bothers me somehow.
(not r/s please, dont have that thinking that im having r/s pro)
i need to sort out that fickle mind of mine asap.
i wonder whats happening to me.
imagine yourself in a state whereby u're stucked in a shit-hole,
trying to climb out of it but sad enough, u arent that f-ing strong to climb out,
and fell down deeper to that shit-hole and u felt disgusted with everything around u.
(thats how i felt luh, am sorry if my description scares u off)
life's been rotten enough and its hard to handle it.

meii took this for me while we're waiting for our parents to fetch us back.
avoiding something or someone doesnt always mean that i hate it.
it could also mean that u want it, but u just know it isn’t right.
(i retweet this in my twitter)

there's plenty of new songs nowadays that i tear for.
neither do i have any idea why tears fall.

learn to swallow everything down on my own

2011-02-18T13:15:00.002+08:00

when things aint going right, out of place,
and peers isnt here,
i've learn to swallow everything down on my own.

sometimes i wonder, really wonder,
am i expecting too much, is it just me?
maybe yes. or really a yes.

yes, i dislike being "used"
perhaps not done deliberately, but somehow it seems to me.

elaine told me in tweet that "bad things don't last forever.
yea, it doesnt last forever. *hope the feel end asap.

happy valentine's day

2011-02-14T12:38:00.006+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day To Everyone !!
so how are you guys going celebrate your day for today ??
love is in the air.
did you sense it? (apparently for me, i dont. HAA)
i guess many will be seeing this scene today. (below photo)
couples sharing drink together :p

wonder how i spent my valentine's day right now?
im all ready to share half of my day with everyone and apparently,
for the later part of my day, it will be the same too. so i doubt i will update again?

right now, im in office working like a mad women with piling mountains of documents to clear.
(above and below photos shall do the talking for me)
but! im still taking my own sweetest time to clear it, or to be exact,
after ending this post, i shall bury my head into these piling mountains.
*what a valentine's day to start with huh*

i guess restaurants will be fully booked?
unless you're cooking on your own and having candle light dinner at home.
if you're doing last minute booking, you've gotta be real fast k?
else, all the seats will all be booked and worst of all,
imagine you have to head to some fastfood restaurant for your candle light dinner.
ouch! i guess your gf might stares at you or even threw a tantrum?
(i duno luh, it depends on each individual too, don take it too serious huh)
anyone booked this restaurant? (im not sure if sg has this too)
i just found it special and grab it from websites. LOL!

as for me, i had my lunch in office! and knew what?
the below photo food isnt the thing i ate luh. (this was taken from website)
what i ate was much much much worst than this!
my lunch was just plain rice, cabbage and not even a piece of chicken meat.
ouch! (it breaks my heart into pieces) (anyway, im just kidding LOL)

and during this special day, (valentine's day)
most guys will be sending bouquet of roses to their gf/wife.
this is something very routine i guess?
valentine's day = roses ?
but whoever that receives the bouquet of roses, will definitely be happy! (right girls?)
but to be fair to guys, lets be a little bias to them ok?
roses in V.day are really expensive luhs!
if i didnt remembered wrongly, one stalk of rose can cost up to $13?
goodness!! you can use that $13 to buy 2 set of fastfood meals and share together man!
(ok, i guess some girls might think im insane and say HELLO! ITS ONLY LIKE 1 TIME IN A YEAR! NO ASKING HIM TO BUY ME ROSES EVERYDAY WHAT, WHATS THE EXPENSIVE ABOUT?)
i've got no idea huh. personal opinion, doesnt have to get offended ok?

and yes, beside roses, guys will definetly get their gf/wife,
most guys will also get another gift to surprise his beloved.
like, tiffany&co? (ok, this is only eg)
so what have you get for your love ones?
a bracelet, necklace or a ring?
or something that u made on your own?
a scrapbook that filled with all the memories of you and her?

what i've got for this "special day was presents of few mountains of unfinished work.
and faces from bosses since morning? (HELLO! EXCUSE ME! i doubt i owe u a single cents)
what a lovely day i've got.
if anyone grumbles that their valentine's day stinks to the max,
kindly think about it again.

oya! im coughing like madness! i wonder if this cough continues,
which one will i cough out?
blood or lungs?
*wondering while coughing*

anyway,
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY PEOPLE! ENJOY WITH YOUR LOVE LOVE ONES!!

Waiting

2011-02-12T14:37:00.004+08:00

i was think to alone, while waiting for you,
i've been thinking that you're so painful after you left me,
so you're crying on the way back to me.
when i look at you, i suddenly thought that,
someday on a clear day, you will come back to me just like when you left me.
can't i see you again?
i'm can't see me your eyes.
accustomed hand gestures and smiling remained, although they make me cry.
if your heart call for me,
don't hesitate to come back in front of me,
i'll hug you like i did before.

are you a taurus?

2011-02-08T10:09:00.005+08:00

my younger sis yesterday say this,
taurus people are easily angry,
dislike people to keep emphasizing on their mistakes,
stubborn, extremely stubborn.
i agree (:

anyway, now i know how irritating it was,
when chatting on msn, those funny icon that people save pop out in the conversation.
like k, equal to -->
haha, equal to -->
now i understand why someone say my hamster (haha) face so irritating,
and hates to see it in the conversation.

dedicated post

2011-02-07T10:39:00.008+08:00

this is a post dedicated to those who i know.
regardless if you're close to me or not,
this is for you guys!
thank you!

my dearest family members who gave me a sense of secure, love and everything.
they're the one who will always be by my side.
never the one who will leaves me regardless how detest i am.
teaching and guiding me in life to become a better person everyday.
being by my side no matter what shitty stuffs i've been through.
telling me to be strong and provides me everything that i need.
without them, i guess i'll definitely lost my ways in life and be the most lousy person.
they're the source where i stay strong,
the source where i continue to live on.
thank you and love to my most wonderful and precious family!!
this girls who accompanied me throughout thick and thin.
known each other since we're in primary school.
until today, we're still together and aiding each other in life.
we do crazy things together, bitch about everything under the sun.
when one are too close with the other,
eventually, quarrel and misunderstandings arise.
despite all these that arise,
we've learn to be honest to each other.
clearing all doubts and unhappiness and be frank.
although words might be harsh, eventually, all just want the best for each other.
i must admit, im definitely not a perfect person, and with tons of flaws in me,
but these girls didnt give up on me and yet be by my side supporting me.
thanks girls, for everything that you did!
im glad to have you[s] by my side.
thank you and love you!! (:

this sisley pipi is definitely one that i love so much.
we didnt know each other like how long i've met the girls,
but this babe is definitely one that i've never regret to know in life.
we went though the toughest path in life together,
teaching and helping each other in our path.
having the same hobbies and love fashions like nobody business
know what? both of us had a period that we didnt meet each other more than 6 months.
but whenever we meetup, there's never ending stories to update each other.
never feel that she's a stranger even for such long time that we didnt meet.
even up till today,
she's been such a great, wonderful sisley pipi to me.
she's one that accept my flaws like the girls.
im glad to met her during my secondary school life.
thanks babe and i love you know!!

friends that i had, know in life,
in-regardless if you're the one that i've known in primary, secondary or tertiary life,
someone that is not close term with me, dislike me for reasons,
i thanks you guys for appearing in my life.
im grateful for all the different lesson that you guys gave me.
the different experiences in life that i've encounter that makes me today.
im thankful to those who are still by my side till today,
being here and having all the fun and joys together.
im stubborn, bad tempered and there's alot other flaws in me.
sorry if i've hurt you in the past,
and thank you for leaving a print in my life.
(:

how about u?

2011-02-06T13:36:00.002+08:00

how's everyone CNY celebration?
guess i shall update it again tomorrow.

quoted it from TVXQ Changmin,

“I think we make repeated mistakes and regret as we live on in life. I always say that I shouldn’t act frustrated towards my parents, and that I should treat them well, but whenever they call me, I just say things like, ‘What do you want to know for?’ I end up regretting it all in the end,”
and
“It’s the same for your lover. You always feel that you should treat them better, but you don’t realize how precious they are until later on. Regarding love, there is no ‘later.’ If you feel that you should do it, express it now and just love. Don’t do something you’re going to regret.”

i agree to it,
how about u?

CNY

2011-02-02T10:40:00.003+08:00

tomorrow is officially CNY! (Chu Yi)
today is CNY eve,
and now im still stuck in office updating this post.
awwww! (the feeling stinks max!)
felt so irritated! half day!!
why it is whenever we're working,
the time is taking her own sweetest time to move?
(if only i am doing things that i love to, i don mind working)

LET ME GO HOME!
I WAN TO EAT!
>.<"
(got to control my eating habits esp this CNY)

oya!
i wanna sing!!!!
i wonder if the girls see this? :/

anyway,
恭喜发财!
enjoy your CNY holiday people :)

super show 3 is awesome ♥

2011-01-31T10:26:00.003+08:00

there's zillion things that i wanted to update.
please pardon with me if this post is gotta be a long wordy ones alright?

firstly, last friday (28/01/2011)
met sisters at raffles place and went fullerton starbucks to chill,
waited with ling for the girls to arrive,
and was joking with xin that since she's the last one to arrive,
she shall treat us to dinner. (LOL)

on our way there,
saw sisley jewel and we both shouted and hug each other.
its totally epic luh, so funny.
chill and went to marina square for dinner.
had sakae sushi and the 4 of us update each other about individual life.
their are like ~~~~~~~ and mine is ---------,
so didnt update much about my life.
and after dinner, we headed home.

and i met sisley jewel to pass her the clothes.
chat with her lots luhs,
and this girl is super ultra having dog shit luck (in chinese please)
i've never met someone so lucky like her before
was laughing non stop even we say bye to each other.

secondly,

TAADAA!!! saw the above picture?
SUPER SHOW 3, SUPER JUNIOR THE 3RD ASIA TOUR!
it was held on 29th Jan 2011 and 30th Jan 2011.
2 shows for singapore elf.
and i went to the 1st show, that was held on the 29th Jan 2011 .

god! let me tell u,
the show is super awesome know!
i've never enjoy a concert till this extend that i've got myself
SUPER JUNIOR CONCERT 后遗症!!
and i really missed the concert so much,
till i went to source for the 2nd show, on the 30th Jan 2011,
but it was all sold out! ):
(but im happy that at the very least, im able to get the 1st show ticket)

i even cried during the concert.
the video is soooo touching!
cried like 3 / 4 times i guess,
and i think the 10 boys didnt actually perform the concert,
but enjoyed every single part of the concert.
they can even do funny stuns during the concert,
its so much different from concert that i've watched in the past,
to put it simply,
THEY ARE SUPER AWESOME!! ♥♥♥

after the concert, it was raining like cats, dogs, cows, sheep, lions, tigers, dinosaurs!
got no umbrella at all!!
i left meii with one of the girls who carried umbrella,
and ask her to shelter her over to the station.
while me and meiteng run over to the station ~.~
the 2 of us get totally drenched when we reached there,
was freezing like madness and laughing here and there.
headed down to meet parents after that.
ate roti prata and head home.

awww! i still miss them so much!!
and know what,
im updating this post in office!
another freezing day -.-
ahh chewww~

F.E 2nd collection

2011-01-28T10:30:00.004+08:00

(click on the image)
Ferris Effiel (F.E) has launched her 2nd collection.
this time round, more dresses compared to her debut.
CNY is just like next week?
it will be a good time to grab the clothes for new year
as well as coming valentine's day.
do join the mailing list to get the most updated info from F.E
(its just at her column of the webpage)
and add her through facebook to see her collection as well.
(simply just type in ferris effiel in the search, and you'll find it)
its simple isnt it?
get your gf's to add her in FB and join in the mailing list :)
remember to take a look at the 2nd collection along with her debut collection.

anyway,
those who knows me,
should know that im a lover for furry (maomao) stuffs.
esp when its nov/dec,
i'll definitely like go insane over furry stuffs
(only at that period of time, more of those stuffs will be available)
so, according to my character,
this year, without fail, i'll definitely buy things that is related to it.
yes, i've bought myself 3 pairs of snow shoes (like again)
totally cant resist these cutie stuffs and ended up having a big holes in my pockets.
):
but im a happy girl because these cutie stuffs made my day!

oyah,
im a bohemian / hippie style person. <3
taadaa~
people think its weird in wearing those,
but its my favorite!

someday

2011-01-23T20:11:00.003+08:00

i hope this tears will stop running someday
someday after this darkness clear up
i hope the warm sunshine dries these tears
when I feel that I’m getting tired of looking me exhausted,
i want to give all my dreams I’ve kept hard
every time I feel that I’m lacking in many things more than I have
i lost strength in my legs and drop down
everyday I hold out comforting myself “it will be alright”
but it makes me afraid little by little
i tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t
now I don’t know how longer I can hold out
but wait it’ll come
although the night is long, the sun comes up
i don’t have enough confidence more and more to overcome myself
someday my pains will get away

mini garden by mum

2011-01-20T19:44:00.002+08:00

chinese new year is just around the corner.
guess many families will be busy getting all sort of barang barang,
like foods, decorations etc.
and every year,
my mum will definitely decorate the pathway outside our house.

this is what she call,
her mini garden filled with chinese new year feel.
(i guess i have a pretty cute mum, do you guys think so?)

among the whole block that we stayed in,
our house will definitely be the most outstanding ones.
regardless of what, it never fails before. (HAHA)
from the ground,
just look up and you will definitely see the most decorative ones,
and definitely its ours.

if there's an award that stated the most decorative pathway,
i guess my mum will definitely win the award.
so what do you think? (HAHA)

yummy rainbow pocky

2011-01-19T10:45:00.004+08:00

let me intro this rainbow pocky to everyone,
7 colors = rainbow (:
inside the box (their packaging)
there is 7 big sticks inside it,
(its not the normal strawberry or chocolate flavor packaging, its the big kind of box?)
and each individual color has its own individual flavor.
like, the purple ones = grapes?
and i think everyone should grab one pack and try.
just because it is super yummy!! :)
(sorry for the messy background)
credit for this rainbow pocky goes to my meii.
because its bought by her (:

at times when i'm down, i tend to wonder,
why am i doing this, that, those and these?
why do i have to "torture" myself in a sense waking up and work despite going school?
and then ask myself again, 我在拼什麼? 我到底在拼什麼?
i guess some will ask themselves this question too.
let's listen to show luo (羅志祥) new song,
拼什麼 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1Bh7RZoMMQ&feature=player_embedded)
lyrics:

我在拼什麼在意什麼最多~

人群走了燈光不在場地凌亂...
太多情緒顯得想喊想聽很難
諷刺懷疑總是很酸一路糾纏
冷言冷語不看不管心卻敏感

路燈擦亮午夜車窗像淚光閃閃
想要跟誰溫暖的交談卻隻有我很孤單
早上匆匆忙忙出門時好在有燈忘了關
像誰堅持等了整夜要給我陪伴

我在拼什麼在意什麼最多
為了什麼又累又寂寞
不怕別人誤會了就怕最在乎的人也不想懂
有些時候我會做夢盼望回過頭你在身后
溫柔看我沒有不快樂沒有逼我做抉擇
懂我拼什麼懂我最寶貝你了

懂你讓我多痛~

2011-01-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

edited and change the blogskins.
hope things will get better.
woohoo!

2011-01-14T15:54:00.003+08:00

my first 2011 post!
and im here to wish everyone a good year ahead!
hope everyone will be happy and blessed this year (:
AND IT MUST DEFINITELY GOES WELL FOR ME K??

i've been busy since 2011 start,
2011 has just passed 14 days, (meaning 2 weeks?)
and these 14 days,
i've been planning and doing something that i always wanted.
and that is launching an online boutique.
i've launched it on the 13th (yesterday),
and i do really hope it will goes well for me.
to be honest, im pretty afraid that it wont do well,
but nonetheless, whether or not,
never try, never know, right?

here is my online boutique web page:
http://ferriseffiel.miyoc.com/
do support and come take a look at it.
if there's any enquiries about the products,
feel free to email me ferris-effiel@hotmail
im more willingly to answer any doubts from you.
So,
hurry up and take a look at the first debut from FE!
^^
http://ferriseffiel.miyoc.com/
see you!

2010-12-29T09:21:00.002+08:00

its ending.
2010 is ending soon.
seriously hoping 2011 comes earlier.
got so much to do yet unfulfilled it during 2010.
felt totally disappointed and missing out all chances I had.
if you asked me what is the chances i've missed out,
answer will be PLENTY!

for those who have follow me throughout the journey,
hereby thanks you people for everything.
state of mind hasn't been in a proper ones,
especially recently.
(those who read my tweets or status will know alittle)

got so drained up especially when one is fighting against emotions.
ought to learn to stand up by my own,
ought to stop getting affected by him,
ought to choose to treat myself better although life isn't fair.
i have to reset the button in life and reset my life.
currently,
life to me is such a bitch and bastard.
i wonder if i should slow down or fast up my pace,
slowing down seems like i've been wasting enough time ever since then,
fast up seems like if i didn't do it well, life will continues it bitch ways.
totally a contradicting one.

i didn't want to waste my time again,
life been max mundane,
doing things repeatedly again and again,
seems totally dumb.
despite knowing that its dumb,
mind and heart just don't coordinate together.
admit im such a fickle person!
got to experience life differently starting from 2011.
after hearing what my friends told me regarding that issue,
got so depress till the max that kept repeating it to xj-meii.
definitely know that i cant be the same like her,
but,
i just cant stop myself from getting depressed!

its always easy to say than to applying it into actions.
always didn't want to admit that im totally a failure in some part of my life,
but recently,
i admit that im one.

to be honest,
whenever people tell me about the problems they had for r/s.
i didn't know how to console or give a better suggestions.
can only listen and talk whenever i did went through the situation,
else, stay quiet or will say this,
i cant understand how exactly you felt, but don't because of tiny mini stuffs and quarrel.
treasure what you have.
funny huh?
why didn't i understand this term earlier when im younger?
only up till recent years then i fully understood this sentence

hopefully life will be better in 2011.
not be a bitch/bastard ones in the new coming year for me.
since dad and mum didn't forbid my decisions this time round,
shall start my planning and starting up soon before any changes was made.
hope it will be a smooth and great ones.
i need lots of encouragement this time round.
can everyone give me their encouragement/blessing.
good luck to everyone in 2011.
(:

2010-12-19T11:07:00.002+08:00

felt like a loser.
felt like a failure.
felt like a retard.
everything seems to fail on me.

there's one thing in life im good at: being good for nothing.

i really do love christmas

2010-11-23T11:24:00.001+08:00

Christmas is coming.

i could hear the bell ding ding dong,
i could see the pretty lights while walking on streets,
i could smell chocolates and sweets scents all over the places and
i could feel the happiness in the atmosphere.

but how should i celebrate my Christmas?
i really do love Christmas,
i love this warmth happy season.
but didnt seem to actually had a lovely happy Christmas.

there was once if i didnt remember wrongly.
when im young.
after returning back from church.
grandma, grandpa, mum, dad, aunties, uncles and all the kids
went to have dinner at a nearby coffee shop,
and all the kids were given a Christmas gift.
n i got a hello kitty necklace (but nowhere to be found. *sighs)
i guess that was the best, heartwarming Christmas i had?

have you made wishes for Christmas?
or hoping to get a certain present on Christmas?
can anyone share with me their Christmas experience? (:
thanks souls.

goodnight

2010-11-03T23:14:00.001+08:00

Goodnight world ! - from iPhone

2010-10-29T13:11:00.001+08:00

when I’m still a young girl,
i always dream of being a ballerina in the future.
and they are always the main capture of everybody’s eye.
really love their gorgeous moves,
and always being the lead role in the “show”.
that was when i am young. (:

2010-10-27T15:44:00.003+08:00

Harry potter!!! Harry potter!!! Harry potter!!! Woohoo!!

While watching Harry potter, I'm like coughing my lungs out!!! OH Ms cough, can u stop it! I'm so going to faint if this continue.

When I saw Harry forcing the potion to dumbledore, it's so sad!!! Can't stop crying!!

OH NO!!! MY DUMBLEDORE DIES!!! I HATE VOLDEMORT!!! Bellatrix sux! U crazy women!! Snaps sux!! U coward!! F u!

when everyone is thinking of how they should celebrate their 21st, im thinking of how to celebrate my 22nd! this feel is so unexplainable!

有些事情，当我们年轻的时候无法懂得。当我们懂得的时候已不再年轻。世上有些东西可以补偿，有些东西永远无法补偿。

many times, i try to grab hold of it, but it just slipped off my hands. not that i didnt want to treasure it, but it just seems that is doesnt belong to me. do you understand what i mean by that? why cant things just be seems to be easier as it is?

im not particular about food, but im particular about taste. does that make sense?

没有人有耐心听你讲完自己的故事，因为每个人都有自己的话要说；没有人喜欢听你抱怨生活，因为每个人都有自己的苦痛；这世界愿意倾听，习惯沉默的人，难得几个。我再也不想对别人提起自己的过往，那些挣扎在梦魇中的寂寞，荒芜，还是交给时间，慢慢淡漠。ADD OIL ADD OIL!!

suddenly i like got alot of movies i wanna watch, but i don like going cinema to watch luh! how!!??

i've got an aim/dream to achieve. and if i achieve it, i wanna make it big, and if make it big and successfully, im going to achieve another aim/dream. but before i achieve them, how am i going to start? totally lost of directions! fml!

im excited! im excited!! should i? should i?? *walking here and there* should i go for the elementary course? should i should i??

oyah! suddenly remembered me and Jovian composed this song : SWIMMING, SWIMMING, FISH BITES YOU!!!! SWIMMING, SWIMMING, FISH BITE YOU!!! LOL

ok, i dont know what to update, (waiting for photos)
so i shall post some tweets i've tweeted these few days.
LOL!

2010-10-13T16:51:00.002+08:00

i dont have enough time!!!!
this week & next week & next next week & etc.........
everything seems to be so packed.
so packed till i hardly can have time for myself!
i still have so much things that i havent do, do and do!!!
goodness!!
can someone help me by giving me their extra time.
(im dreaming again!)
DAMN U HRHUIRONG!! WAKE UR SENSE UP LUH!!

2010-10-09T14:52:00.006+08:00

im officially sick,
and know what, im sick on a saturday!
cant go out to shop,
just cant do whatever i wanted as planned.
my sick/lazy body kept laze around today.

and since i cant go out today,
i came up with this idea of steaming the buns
since i dont have the strength to go out and buy lunch.

lets go and see how i steamed the buns . . .

this mini jade bun with pandan flavour is really nice,
you can get it from any supermarket i guess?

and now let see what we need here :
(just view it by yourself ok?) LOL
big pan is needed (i call it big pan k?)

and this! i dont know what its call luh.. so sorry~

and then u need a big cup!
a big eeyore cup to container water. (LOL)

please container the big eeyore cup with water

and then, pour the water into the big pan

now we need a plate, a glass plate is what im using

be hygienic, wash the glass plate first
oyah, wash everything in the first place before using!
be hygienic ok? (:

now let tear off the wrapper and see how the mini bun look like
its so mini and yummy (to me luh)

then placed the 10 mini buns into the glass plate

remember to throw the wrapper into the bin!
please don be a mr/ms anyhow to throw it anywhere (:

now, lets placed them all into the big pan

lets turn on the fire (be careful!)

then place the cover back over the big pan

let the buns steamed for about 15 mins?
(i have no idea how long, maybe more than 15mins? i always judge it by feel.)
ok! as for now, since we have to wait for the buns to be ready,
you can do whatever you want for that 15 mins.

tick tock . . . tick tock . . . tick tock . . .
OK!
15mins up!

remove the big pan cover

and now the buns are ready to be eaten!
(are you excited? no? but i am! LOL)

taadaa! im so going to eat u!!
yummy mini jade pandan buns!!

see the pandan "cream" inside?
heavenly yummy!

and please throw the paper on a bowl
(there's always a piece of paper behind the backside of every buns)
then threw it into the bin after finishing the bun

and taadaa!!
my meii appears too,
posing with the bun

ok, i guess some might say that im being crazy to do this.
LOL!!
but whatever it is,
im going back and continue chewing my yummy buns!
bbye!!

2010-10-08T16:31:00.001+08:00

if you think your tiny heart is so easily broken,
then mine will have broken for millions and billions of times.
fcked off!

2010-10-07T14:39:00.002+08:00

spamming hot water to keep myself calm.
as i grew older, i start finding ways to make myself calm down.
and this time round,
i've spammed lots of hot water just to stop my heart from feeling discomfort.
cant get myself down especially when im working.
(ought to be more professional)
eyes turn watery, but there's no tears coming out.

no worries.
life still goes on.

2010-10-07T08:44:00.003+08:00

有一种女孩 - 她独立，也好强，
她宁愿忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦也不愿意向别人提起。
她也会偶尔的忧郁，
朋友问她怎么了，她也只会说没事，
其实她只是感觉累了，她只是需要一个拥抱。
遇到真正懂她爱她宠她的人，
她就一定会很安静，
心甘情愿的安静下来，
不烦，
不闹，
安心地做一切能和他一起做的事情。

2010-10-06T12:10:00.002+08:00

another post that took me a few hundreds years.
(update it during lunch break)
couldnt remember what happened recently,
all i knew was, i've attended lots of birthday celebrations.
grandma's birthday, meii's 17th, xiaohui's 21st, lydia's 21st, junjie's 20th etc..
those birthday celebrations that i've attended, made me so broke.
upcoming birthday celebrations will be jeannie's 21st, ling's 21st,
xin's 21st, jewel 20th, meiteng's 21st, shan's 21st and MORE!!! (goodness)
and these upcoming birthday celebration will definitely make me went bankrupt.
(guess i better save up a million dollars before my bank will dry)

recently, there's so much disappointment in my life.
going through a hard time fighting against my emotions.
well, i definitely knows that life cant be perfect nor goes the way i want them to be,
but, i just cant stop myself from getting my mood down.

at a point of time, we tripped, fell and got lost in directions bout life.
some took minutes to heal,
some took years to heal,
some never heal,
some just got it worst.
perhaps im lost in directions,
perhaps i've just tripped and fell,
who knows?
i dont even know where i am now.
do you?

if there is a medicine that can ease discomfort away,
i’ll just get a few dozen of it before those discomfort come and say hi.
this photo is just far too long.
dig it out and post again.

2010-10-03T16:43:00.003+08:00

陳奕 video.. woohoo!!

2010-09-30T12:49:00.001+08:00

the day before yesterday was my worst day i had (up till now)
though there might be other days that i felt it was totally f up,
nonetheless, yesterday was quite f up too.

firstly, i didnt know where went wrong with my phone,
it dies on me just like so suddenly.
the moment i stepped into office,
and i off it (just to restart it),
it went up to heaven without notify me in the 1st place -_-
(feel so naked without my phone with me)

then, i totally have no idea why my colleague kept on laughing when my phone dies on me.
(is there anything that is worth laughing?)

secondly, when my mood went totally down,
the artwork that was given by my supplier has the name on it.
for goodness sake!
and it spells exactly the same.

thirdy, i didnt know what he meant by when the times come,
then he will tell me.
seriously, dont make my heart sank down to the deep ocean.
its hard to find back once it sank.

and lastly, the coincidence.
and ya, i didnt saw u. sorry.
(lucky this isnt a bad part of my day luh. LOL)

2010-09-19T16:26:00.007+08:00

another 100 years since i updated (like again, LOL!)
sometimes, i have no idea what's going through my brains/mind.
there's always lots of things going on and then,
the next moment it just went blank.
(isit because i've got short-term memory or what?)

havent been uploading photos of the outings that i have,
firstly, im too lazy (and i really mean LAZY)
secondly, i dont have the time (after work, do some stuffs den wait for time = sleep)
thirdly, i couldnt remember i've even take photos when there's outing (sorry pp)
and so, since i could remember,
let me upload some

our family having dinner at sbw on one Sunday night,
(i’ve forgotten what is the restaurant name)
before the food arrive,
we allow jovian gege to play with water at the baby pool.

happily playing water and enjoying at the same time

xinxuan 21st birthday celebration at aloha loyang.
happy birthday boy!!

meetup with pri gfs for alittle catchup.
lets meetup again babes!

meetup with nyp buddies at bugis for steamboat.
but tingting wasnt with us ):

我家的两位可爱的宝贝!
jovian 哥哥 and jovis 弟弟.

bye, shall see you next time my old buddy (blog)

2010-09-07T20:42:00.002+08:00

简单的快乐仿佛离我好远，
烦恼的事是多到连自己都觉得离谱！
是我要求的太多，还是它本来就不属于我？

as usual, life is somehow filled with shit (apparently its cause of work life)
if only im able to find a job that i enjoyed,
how great will that be right?
this job is definately not the one that i enjoyed,
with a f.up working life, nothing seems to be great,
hopefully i'll get to find something that i enjoy and stop whining like a granny.

blogged from touch

2010-08-26T23:41:00.001+08:00

I'm using my touch to online, to write this post. Haven't been feeling well, Until now, I'm still feeling bad. Haven't been updating my blog too.Hopefully I will update something properly soon. Bye earthlings ^^v

2010-08-15T17:26:00.001+08:00

simple life, simple breakfast..
^^

2010-08-11T15:28:00.002+08:00

its been like LONG since i last updated this dusty web.
*blowing all the dust away*
there's dozen of photos to share,
dozen of summaries of where i have been and how's my life.
(though i know that there isnt really anyone reading)
but still, my life went as mundane as it was in the previous post.
(previous or previous previous or previous previous previous)

this picture that i found online meaning its been a long time,
and i found it suitable for my post at the moment.
resemble its been a long time since i update. (LOL)

for the past few weeks, been leading life in this way :
going chalet (xuan's 21st chalet)
going out with sisters
going out with friends to JB
going out with meii to town like almost every week
and most importantly,
going out at >11pm to buy mac for straight for >3 days

oya, did i mention that im really stressed up recently?
with alot of things in mind (actually not alot luhs)
shall write it on another post.

i wont forget the time we shared, the tears we cried.

sometimes, i really wish i could stay.

under a magic spell that doesnt get things undone,
sweet talk and tasteless conversations.
i have no interest in them,
but for some reason, it still hurts.

eh, is anyone still with me? (:

2010-07-27T12:15:00.004+08:00

the doors closed, the emptiness is like a moment alone and i cried again ..

have you ever wonder, what if one day,
your parents suddenly told you that they detest you??
and ask you to leave..?
how will you react to the situation..?
can anyone share..?

you smiled and talked to me of nothing and i felt that for this i had been waiting long..
thought that even though i might not be the one u doted most,
but never to expect to heard what i didnt want to..
if thats what you want,
i will just leave asap, and to some place where there's no one who knows me..

2010-07-20T12:07:00.002+08:00

life's getting more mundane and mundane,
NO! its from mundane to worst.
aimless jobs has turn my life so shitty.

just didnt want to work for anyone,
just wanted to be a boss on my own,
but the issue is,
when there's no captial, no planning, nothing at all,
how am i suppose to be a boss? (LOL)
can any kind souls sponsor me with some hard cash!!

maybe i shall start writing a proposal now!!
do a draft to see if whatever i wanted to do will be successful not.
most probably everyone will think that im too naive.
i knew that setting up a business isnt such easy task,
but, if i never did move my 1st step,
i will never know if i'll succed not.

i remember when i did entreprenship,
we have to follow the following content:
*executive summary,
*company business,
*company idea,
*company mission statement,
*targeted market,
*company unique selling point,
*comany critical success factor,
*competitor analysis,
*marketing survey,
*marketing mix (4'Ps),
*operation plan,
*financial plan,
*future strategy of the company,
and
*conclusion.

and now because i thought of just doing online shop,
do i still have to write everything in so detail?
anyone got any idea..?
so bored with life, esp when its on weekdays..
my weekends are quite enjoyable
(or should i say, it is enjoyable? LOL)
WHY MY WEEKENDS PASS SO FAST!!
):

2010-07-18T18:22:00.011+08:00

went down to (AES) to get leopard logo tee and AES leopard 100^ be@rbrick..
went down at 11plus and both meii and i was late,
ended up kevin had to wait for us there alone..
(sorry brother!!)
didnt manage to get the size i wanted,
but just because im so in love with the logo tee,
i've bought it and don even care about the sizes..
*keiden with us..
she's soo bubbly.. stage crew!!

after our buying the tee and lunched there,
headed down to ion and meetups with xueli and alicia..
den we shopped here and there and headed down to cine..
*photos

down to scape and of cause, we did went in to STAGE
*photos with wooney..
she's so cute.. stage crew!!

and then, jinwen and qiaoxian came to meet us..
and taadaa..
*photos

I LOVE STAGE..
how about you??

actually there's more to update,
but im soo tired and brain dead now,
so let me move on with the other part of the day..

had dinner with girls at 313 ding tai fung..
and finally, i got to eat my 豆沙包..
before our food came, these photos was taken..

FOODS!!!!

headed down to scape kbox,
its nice, but there's something that 3 of us didnt like..
there's no free drink included in the package :/
but whatever it is,
personally, i've enjoy the singing session plus photos taking session..

we've leave like about 11.30 and then during the train ride back,
was too bored, and i start taking photos with ling..

i've like missed out alot of details,
no worries at all,
cause a picture speaks a thousands words.. (LOL)

allow your imagination and fly with STAGE ♥

2010-07-13T12:36:00.017+08:00

as some of you might know that 10 july 10,
is STAGE新加坡旗艦店 grand opening..
with some SFC members, we went to overnight queuing,
(i tell u, i felt super fatigue after everything ended, NO JOKE!)
though theres bit of unhappiness here and there,
(for those who went, they know what i really meant and im really pissed)
but still, i do enjoy the moment there..

STOMP!!!! this is the sweet that we've customise for the grand opening..
thanks to the media who took this photo and stomp it.. (:

i've been the photographer of the day..
though im not a expert, but i've tried to be one..
(so pardon me for the lousy shoots eh)

them with the S sign.. understand what i mean :/

meii and her NEW younger brother.. LOL!!

my new adopt younger brother..
(kevin really treat me like his big sister)

below photos will be some photos of the store..
took it when its closed..

i have no idea what they're doing, but i guess,
they're hoping STAGE to open asap??

meii and i was soooo bored that we started taking photos..
pardon us for that..

FRAGILE!!! BE CAREFUL!!!

pack in jars and packets..

jars are for stage crew, and packets are for us and media..

SGP STAGE GRAND OPENING
SHOW YOUR STYLE

I LOVE STAGE!!

i wanted to try this, but i was tooo busy that day..
sweat*

li jin and cindy..

seriously speaking, i dont like this!!!
i dont like people who ate their things and dont throw their things away..
(know what, i ask everyone to clear their spot when we're queuing at our own place)

kevin and meii

candid..

at taiwan xinwang..
everyone's exhausted after the event..
and again, im the lousy photographer.. LOL!

i shall end all the photos by my twist!!!

i still got things to post,
but im so braindead now..
bbye!!~
allow your imagination and fly with STAGE ♥

2010-07-08T13:07:00.002+08:00

this photo above is kind of like so many years back..

(guess it has been a year or so)

at kusu island with xiaowei..

when my greedy heart gradually search,

my mind can’t handle whenever my greed grow..

i know all those reasons clearly,

but there's nothing to be done..

happy anniversary girls..

due to our busy schedule, we arent able to celebrate,

but still, take care and enjoy this special day of ours..

yesterday, 07/07, was our sisters anniversary..

we've like known each other for donkey years,

been through so many mountains of ups and downs..

sharing as much gossips, personal stuffs, nonsense together..

great to have the girls around,

else, life will be soo boring..

thanks girls..

2010-07-05T15:50:00.002+08:00

from the beginning you werent right for me,
but my greed in you was just too much..
as a punishment for me that my greed created,
i neither hurt nor hope..
the words that im believing all alone,
the words i cant hear anymore,
and the ugly words i cant say..
then I’ll forget you and send you away..

2010-07-04T17:12:00.003+08:00

isolated..
every day a different chore, every week a different routine..

when you cry, you can close your eyes and clearly see that person..
when you forget and ignore, you’ll remember that person even more..
that person will come back, my heart is a seaway, with lies..
i didn’t tell you i would come back, you’re someone who can only wait..

it was a mistake to love you too much, a mistake to love you too much..
because of you, because of what i love, i suffer from waiting..
to love you more was a mistake, a mistake to desire you so much..

the breakup was so fast, if you forget love you’ll know more..
to me you were my love, i knew that by myself..
you left me, and went somewhere faraway..

i should have loved you my whole life and now you’re going to forget me and go..
you’re the one that i loved for my entire life,
but you just left me with grief, i knew it all to myself..

because i loved you more, it’s a sin, because i missed you, it was a sin..
because of you, i cried because, of my sins..
sick love..

2010-07-02T11:04:00.002+08:00

being a single mother...
single mother would not be eligible for Baby Bonuses,
four-month maternity leave, six days of childcare leave, and other benefits.
????

i've read thru an article about this mother who choose to give birth instead of abortion..
resulted that she've to borrow money from others..?
here's the article : http://www.sgpolitics.net/?p=3633

hard to say if the govt is right or the single mother is right..
both have their own stand..
i agree to this sentence : Single mothers are tax payers as well.
It is only right for them to enjoy the same benefits and privileges accorded to all other mothers.
(for single mother side)
and also,
for a single mother to raise up their kids alone without the "him" by their side,
its already such a tough job and they've got to take in whatever discrimation from others..
so,
what do you think?

know what,
actually i've got the thinking of being a single mother before..
i dont know how to explain myself out here,
but its just reason behind it.. (haha!)

its friday today..
and i want want want want to sleep!!~

2010-06-30T10:30:00.004+08:00

ok, i've passby a blog that wrote about singaporean girls..
so, im here to write about what is that post about..
ready? (lets go!)

the truth is most Singaporean ladies in general
(this isgeneralizing, there are of course many exceptions),
in comparison to many of our foreigncounterparts,
are not that beautiful nor as stylish (same goes for the men, haha!)
If menwanted to be surrounded by gorgeous Asian girls,
they'd be better off in Taiwan, Korea, Chinaor Japan.
Singaporean women have a tendency to be b****y and gossipy,
competitive, not as sweet or sincerely nice; they aren't very interesting or fun
Plenty are demanding when to comes topotential suitors,
their checklist could be as long as toilet roll.

the above paragraph, i've copied from the blog,
so, what do you think about this??
isit true that sgp laides are like this??
being a local myself,
i agree to a certain extend that what she wrote is true,
(just giving my own comments, don get offended eh)
girls in Taiwan, Korea, China or Japan are really much more gorgeous..
sometimes when we walk on the streets,
we'll see different people from different countries,
walk behind them and c the difference in what they wear,
how they talk, walk and act, the difference will be somehow obvious luhs..
(but there's sgp ladies who is sooo pretty too)

i've got guys friend who've ask me questions like,
why Taiwan, Japan, Korea girls are sooo pretty and yet it hard to find in sgp..
why like this, why like that..
(seriously, i've got no answer for that eh)
its not that sgp ladies isnt gorgeous etc,
but maybe we've been living in the only 1 country,
thats why when we travel or watch tv,
girls from different countries dress and act differently..
den we will go woooooooow!!
but maybe other countries guys might find sgp girls gorgeous??
(i dunoe)

or maybe its because of the season too?
sgp only've got like 1 season? (rain and shine only??)
unlike other countries, (they have the 4 seasons)
so its like, we couldnt wear winter clothings in sg ma..
imagine if we were to wear that ???????
(goodness, i'll just melt and die off~~~ LOL)
but whatever it is,
what do u think? mmmmmmmm.....

2010-06-28T19:54:00.004+08:00

i realized something,
and something very very serious..!
TOO SERIOUS LIAO!!!!
I HAVE BEEN TRAVELLING UP AND DOWN TO SCAPE FOR 1 MONTH,
CONTINUOUSLY NON STOP ON WEEKENDS FOR 1 MONTH..
(i wonder if scape were to have a vip card, maybe i'll have it now. LOL)

though i've been travelling up and down for 1 month,
but i've always got things to take (imean photos)
(i didnt know why luh, but scape, scape park is sooo nice luhs)
actually, im wondering if this coming weekend,
will i still be hanging at scape??
what do u think??

meii and i,
we went down to scape on both sat and sun..
and went down to clarke quay and chinatown on sun too..
(went down to meet dad and mum too)
so busy, but yet it is a fulfilling day..

ever since that saturday,
my weekends is always book with something..
even if it is, i'll make sure i'll be doing something on weekends..
its been so long, but it just seems like yesterday..
but whatever it is,
IM JUST GOTTA SMILE AND GO ON WITH LIFE..

oyah,
is there anyone who is still reading this blog..
mmm, im wondering......
i wanna go home..(aint feelin well) ~~~

“舊舊”感覺的建筑

2010-06-24T20:44:00.003+08:00

我喜歡懷念過去，
當然也很喜歡那些
帶著有點“舊舊”感覺的建筑，
(新加坡，也很少這樣的地方耶，*嘆氣*)
haji lane ^^v

sometimes, when there's no one who understands u,
where everyone dont understand why are u acting this way,
or why are u doing this instead of that,
always be glad, always be contented,
as long as there's one person who understand why are u doing this or that,
that's more than enough..

it raining like cats and dogs,
so heavy that when im on my way to work,
the road is flooded and there's jams..
only able to reach office by 9am instead of 8.15am..
such a heavy downpour,
and im wondering if 2012 is true..
what do you think??

2010-06-21T20:09:00.005+08:00

i've been so busy (or should say that im sick),
until today, (nearly 1 week pass, den im going to upload the photo)
last fri, met up with xin and shan for dinner and shopping..
bought lots of stuffs (xin bought more than mi LOL)
taadaa,
below are some of the photos..

after our dinner and shopping,
had girls chat nearly up to 5am..
hopefully the girls are doing fine currently..
and ling's back!!!
(i miss her so much luhs!!)
lets have a gathering just for us (:

okies,
im exhausted in typing,
working had been really tedious,
just because i was MC for 2 days, i got workload like a huge mountain..
for goodness sake..~
im tired, i wan to go home!!!! (y m i stuck here!!!)
),:

TGIF

2010-06-18T10:02:00.006+08:00

TGIF..!!
meaning later on im going out for dinner with xin n shan..
meaning saturday im going out for shopping..
meaning sunday im going to stay at home and rest..
and tgif, im so happy right now (at least for the moment)

recently life have been mundane, theres nothing happening around,
leading a really peaceful life,
no anger, no happiness, no sadness, nothing and nothing..
i wonder if this is good or bad.. (anyone wants to tell me?)
maybe i should really find some entertainment for myself,
but then, what entertainment??? (i wonder i wonder)

im trying to show to you people that,
no point crying over spilt milk,
(but i guess i failed, it become no point crying over spilt egg)
LOL!!
but whatever it is, the behind meaning is still the same luhs..
what i wanna say to myself is that, since it has all been past,
i shouldnt drowned myself in the past..
shouldnt kept on holding back because, afterall,
everything had been spilted out and is already past..
right??

im not trying to say that i've forgo everything,
but im trying all ways to get myself out..
to be frank, im 120% sure that i wont forget everything,
(and i wont force myself to forget)
not drowned by the past,
and get to rememeber all happy thing from now on..
let memories be kept down at the deepest in me..
i cant promise that i wont think of it anymore,
(definately i will think back of it sometime)
at least i hope when i think back of the past,
i'll have the strength to smile and get over it again..
be strong HRHUIRONG!!!! (:

and ya, im moving on, and trying to move on,
but my speed is like the above snail,
slow and is very slow..
whatever luhs,
at least im moving bit by bit, better than nothing eh..

am in office now,
sucking mac-extra strength lozenges for inflammatory throat conditions..
~.~"

my trip down to STAGE and AES!!

2010-06-12T19:30:00.015+08:00

went scape with meii on 12.06,
to be honest, its a SUPER GOOD PLACE!!!
(for me myself, i really love this place to the max)
love the concept of how the building(or whatever its called),
its soo cool and its a good place to hang around!!!
(shall get my girls/friends whoever to go there to hang around)
the below photos are just some snapshot of the place
and anyway, it is the first multi purpose mall in Singapore,
to gather fashion stores, dance studio, music school, radio station and theatre.
(its not clear luhs, so u should go down and see it yourself)

i noe im crazy luhs,
but who cares if im insane or what,
just love taking photos whenever i go..
even if its inside the toilet!! LOL!!!

both my meii and my motive to why we went scape was because,
we wanted to go down to STAGE HYALINE OF WORLD..
and for your information, STAGE is being shifted to scape,
the store concept is different from the past (which is located at far east)
so everyone should go and take a look yeah..

after buying our stuffs at stage, meii and i went down to AES!!!
(which is located at far east, replacing the stage that was previously there)
and know what!!!
i've like waited for AES to be launched in singapore for like years!!!
ever since it was launched in taiwan, i've always wanted their clothes!!!
and now its launced in sg, i should be going down far east more often i guess!!

after our shopping at AES,
we headed down to orchard central for ermmmmm,
going to urban write luh..
whatever it is, meii and i was so bored that we kept taking photos..

and here we are heading back to our home sweet home..!~

and yah, as i've said earlier,
i've gone shopping at both STAGE and AES,
the grey ones is my meii ones, and the white ones is mine..
(i know im not good at taking photos, but im TRYING MY BEST!!!)

yeah!! thats my STAGE Shirt and my AES Top!!!

i've love my day (12.06)!!!!

(:

2010-06-05T18:38:00.008+08:00

i wanted to write, i want to write about how i feel everytime,
but i felt there's nothing to write or didnt know what to write
whenever i reach this page..
but whatever it is,
still, i've got photos to upload and recently,
lucky there's event going on here n there, so, yah,
let me get started with it then..

did i mention in the past post that i've went in to jb with meii and pals??
(did i mention it here or facebook? anyway, i couldnt remember luh)
whatever it is, if i've mention it, just pardon me for updating again..
i guess we went in on a sat and it was 29.05??
i must say, i really enjoy luhs (though there was alittle here n there erm erm)
shall go in again with them if there's like any chance..

went hong house on the 01.06 for steamboat,
was like a mini gathering before he went in camp on the 04.06..
helping up with the food, chit chatting here and there..
hopefully hong will be fine in camp,
after the 2 weeks, hopefully i'll get the chance to see him luhs..
(find me eat food ar hong!!!)
TAKECARE BROTHER!!! (:

04.05, we people plan a little surprise for ray before he enter camp,
the 4 of us, (kc, meixian, peiqing and me)
meetup at 313 to do a little cake for him before the surprise started..
met up with his clique and his mum n sis before going up to his house,
after that, we had dinner cum supper together..

to radiance choo!!
take care of yourself inside the camp,
remember, after 2 weeks, come meet all of us with ur botak head!
LOL!!! (:

ling went to paris yesterday,05.06,
send her to the airport,
hope she have a good trip over there for 3 weeks and
take care of herself and enjoy over there..
girl,
remember, i miss u okay!!!

mmm.. i've got some stuffs to update,
but shall leave it to other day then..

bye!! (:

just a random update..

2010-06-01T13:29:00.002+08:00

got so much to update, events like going in to JB with meii and pals,
going to grandparents house and some thoughts just came running in my brain..
but im like so lacking of time luhs (goodness)~

working is tiring, just imagine when i reach home,
instead of going to bath, i've got the urge to jump to my bed and sleep till the morning..
(but obviously, i didnt do silly things like this luhs)
in the past, im so used to wait for my parents to return home before i tuck in to bed,
and because i've start working,
i didnt have the time and energy to wait for them before they're back..
resulting, when i wake up, my parents are still in bed,
and when im asleep, they've like just return home??
am not happy at all, (but do i have a choice?)
):

if only everything can be reset,
i'll definately not choose this path,
nor the silly things i've done..

scars is in pain,
so stop adding salt, pepper etc to my scars anymore..

SFC HONEYMOON ♥

2010-05-26T21:03:00.002+08:00

sunday, went out with meii and her frens to SFC event..
and i must say, im really loving it.. (sound familiar eh?)
at least at that moment of time, im not thinking of any sad stuffs..
in fact, im enjoying every seconds i have there..
I MISS HIM KNOW!!! (罗祥)

im trying to be happy and happier each day,
trying my very best to remind myself not to think..
就像鬼打墙的跟自己说，
我会一直开心，快乐地。
不能在一直回想你我的从前。(try to luhs)

moving on is simple know,
its what u left behind that makes it difficult..

♥ Graduation ' 10: The Certificate Which Cost Us 6K and 3 Years ♥

2010-05-22T13:23:00.002+08:00

i've graduated and offically graduated from NYP..
its a fun and memorable day i have..
for the 1st time, i realised how much i cant bear to leave school..
though NYP might not be the best school throughout all the polytechnics,
but then, for once, i realised that actually NYP is a good place know?
its a place where i met all my pals and frens,
that the place where i start becoming more sensible too..
after 3 years of hardwork, we've all grad at the same time,
know that we will all go to the same direction,
but its just the journey that is different..
do take care people, and im truly missing everyone..

and know what, i actually bare foot and roam in nyp..
though its unglam (partially cause my foot is just simply tooooooo pain luhs),
but this is just so me, and since its the last day im called as a student in NYP..
(ive actually upload the more photos in fb instead uploading all here (: )

sometimes i wonder, is it because when one is so used to something,
they'll tend to do things de way they've been so used to it?
travelling down from my work place (located at tuas),
i actaully travelled down to changi airport alone..
(this is something i will never do in the past, as in alone luhs)

seeing different people coming in and out of the train,
feeling tends to move up and down,
esp when u see families member going overseas together and know what,
the kids will definately be the most happy ones..
being here alone,
its like, the feeling is so different,
and its kind of like telling me to throw everything behind and i should really take break..

guess no one will ever know how much i wanted to leave this place..
if i could go overseas to work for years or whatever the circumstances it is,
i will definately choose to leave instead of staying..
not as if im trying to run away from reality or wad,
its just that if i could start anew happily in other places,
why not? (right)

all along, i have been thinking if im the right ones or the wrong ones,
but most of the time, when i came here(changi airport),
my mood will never be delighted..
but ya, i still like the atmosphere here u see..
its quiet, peaceful and know what, there's thing to shop here too..

sitting down at BK,
watching people walking and passing by me,
i then realised that actually im like just a small living thing living in this earth..
different people have different expression,
n i wonder what they are thinking at that point of time..
sitting a table away from 2 ladies who cant speak and thus using hand sign to communicate,
then i was wondering, even some might have some physically disabled,
then, they are still leading their life happily..
starting to admire them..

n it allows me to realised something too,
after being so used to being alone,
i actually can sit alone n have my meal there alone..
(to be frank, u'll never get to c me in this situation in the past)
i actually do like roaming around places and discover different spot
(though i found nothing at the moment, lol)

and yah,
maybe i really do have the potential to survive alone if i were to be placed in other countries..

this is not the link to the emo post.. but, is what happen within few hours today..

2010-05-16T00:51:00.005+08:00

know whats the funny thing when u r sitting down and stating in space..?
its not about the shedding of tears, nor about the past memories..
its the way people look at u, sitting at one corner and staring at a lamppost..
doing nothing but just simply staring u see..

waited for merely 2 hours, n slowly when time goes by,
nobody notice your presence whenever they walked pass..
at that point of time, what came across my mind is,
"have i become invisible?" (LOL)
maybe at times, people tend to forget the presence of someone,
and causing the person to be invisible i guess luhs..

and know what, when u stood up and start to leave,
u fell down and nobody's there to give u a helping hand,
the feeling totally stinks like shit ok.. (and it really sthinks ok!)
and when u get up by yourself, u realised your leg became so heavy that u have to drag it..
and i mean really drag it yah..
and suddenly everything became a burden to u,
esp when you're carrying so much stuffs and dragging your feet back..
at that point of time, u saw another place that allows u to rest..
but the feeling became so different..
have no idea if its because,
your feet became so heavy or is it because everything just seems to go wrong..
and things seems to be fading off slowly in front of u..
n till then, u realised that,
maybe u're really invisible in everyone's eyes..
and maybe to them, u're no longer alive..

started to walk back again, n there, u see so many stairs that needed to be climb..
and at the same time ur leg becomes a burden to u..
u will definately feel like,
might as well just give up walking up and just fall back at whichever steps that u're in..
(seriously, thats what really came across my mind)

when u realise, from the place that u start the staring process back to your house,
is just such a short distance,
and u took merely another 1 hour just to reach home,
then u will start to think if something went wrong with your leg..?
or isit because u totally have no strength n no idea on how to move on..?
things that seems to be really simple became so tough..
as if it has tougher itself by double or even million times..
then u start to sit down again at one corner,
touching your knee, rubbing it and think if everything u're doing is right or even worthwhile not..
and u went back staring in the space again,
tears and frustration is what u have..

and know what..?
suddenly, there's people who starts sitting down as if u're not there,
n they just laughed off so loudly..
it then make u realise that,
"wow, im truely a invisible human being.."
a living human being yet to be visible in others eyes..
n when u start walking off, they didnt even realised that u've left..
(seriously, do i really look so invisible to u pp?)

the 2nd updates of the past emo days..

2010-05-15T01:14:00.003+08:00

sometimes, its not about whether i can forget it or not..
its just that the time i needed is much more than others.?
like i said previously, i've cleared the doubts and misunderstandings that i have for the past years..
but somehow or rather, to be frank,
my brain is still tangled luhs u see..
(thats just me luhs, just cant seems to "kan kai" alittle more. LOL!!)

many told me that i should treat myself better, stop thinking so much, etc..
i do agreed to every single thing that many said,
but, time luh, give mi more time luhs.. (LOL)
when u have been so used to leading your life in this manner for years,
its hard for u to change the way u live like so out of the sudden u see..
i've been always wanting to be fair to everyone,
but in this world, there isnt such thing like being fair to everyone..
so yah, im those who always tend to find the best and fair solutions to solve everything,
and ending up bruises everywhere..
(quote by one the many.. LOL)

it hasnt been easy for me these past 3 years plus..
imagine, u have no choice, but always be happy in front of everyone..
trying to stay as strong as a big tree, pretending nothing's bothering u,
and everything just seems to go fine and nothing can actually beat u down..
(try it yourself and let me know if its easy not? LOL)
i know im not exactly a very good friend to the many/some,
but recent years, i've always try to be at least a better person each day..
these 3 years plus, it really teaches me alot (and it REALLY ALOT) lessons..
it really allows me to grow up u see..
(though im still not a perfect person luh (but who is perfect?) mmm)
im not trying to say that im good now, but at least im different from the past..
(okay, at least thats what i felt luhs, if pp don agree to it den so be it lo.. LOL)

to be frank, i know what i actually wants, and i know that the past wont be returning anymore..
but, im just like a balloon..
when i know what i wants, i will be bloated with air and flooding up in the sky..
but, this balloon will still deflate know, and when this happen,
it means that im still tied down and my brain is somehow entangled and don seems to be seeing wide luhs..
know what is 力不从心? this just simply really apply in my situation luh..
i admit that im not determined enough to forget or put the past behind..

that person took 1 year or more to let me realised that i've actually walked out of another bad situation..
but when i realised it, it was just too late luhs..
i know im as slow as a snail, or even slower than snails u see,
but then, like i mention earlier, time time time, i need lonnnnnnng time luhs..

i've got like so many things that i wanna type..
but everything just seems so pack at this moment..
i guess because im tired??
or because its just sooo pain to keep thinking about it??
seriously i've got no idea luh, but whatever it is,
at this point of time,
i wanted to treasure whatever i have..
though i might be still tied down to the past,
but, i will try my best to move off.. (but don expect it to be really fast luhs)
thanks to the many/some who is willingly to accompany me till now..
listening to my shits, entertain me whenever im in shitty moods..
(:

i'll still update whatever that comes to my mind..
but for now,
its been long and it has been a tiring day for me..
so..
bye peeps..

all gone, like the fireworks, once,
temporary beautiful, temporary sweet and whats left is only the memories..

just a little bit of updates of the past emo days..

2010-05-14T12:03:00.005+08:00

im in office right now and is having break now..
didnt went out to lunch, instead i choose to stay in office to rest..

some might be wondering why recently im like so emo for like no reasons?
(through fb, all those posts that i've posted seems emo ehs? LOL)
okay, guess i shall release bit of what happened that cause me to be so emo eh..

times flies, and 3 years plus passed..
lots of things happened in this 3 years plus, but whatever that happen,
im always glad that i have a bunch of lovely friends and sisters who will be there for me..
some kept asking me,
"wow, hr, i don believe u say u 3 years no bf lo"
"how can this be man"
"don lie luhs"
LOL!
i didnt know what to reply, except telling them the truth that,
"ya, i this 3 years totally no bf"
"so what if i don have a bf, very qi guai mehs?"
(i have no idea why, but maybe, i gave people the impression that i do have a bf??)
LOL!!!!~

its not about whether i want to have a bf or not,
is just that, to be very frank,
if i cant manage to get myself out of the boundaries,
den why should i be with someone else?
(to make them as a sub? (it wouldnt be nice right) )
i don want to make the same old mistakes that i've made in the past..
(the pain etc bullshit is totally terrible know? LOL)

recently, ive cleared all the doubts and misunderstandings that was left inside my heart..
to me, its a both way thing.. (there's good and there's bad luhs)
so its kind of like, trying to absorb so many things within days,
i guess if u're a normal human beings,
u wont be able to absorb everything at once right..
so for me, its the same case too,
i do need time and really plenty of time to really absorb it and rearrange my feelings..
maybe like some say, im a heavy emotional person..
yupp, i totally agreed with it, cause its sooo true to the max extend u see..
i know that i've spend super long freaking time in the past,
and for now, its still time and time again..
but what to do? (hahaha)
im always like that isnt it??

im not trying to act one bullshit here,
to let people pity me or whatever yah..
but im just stating what and how i am feeling..
cause yah! this is my blog,
so i can have the rights to do whatever i wanted here..
LOL!!

here's just some little updates about y im emo these few days yea..
should return back to my work,
and will update again if i have the time..
see yah..!

i will promise u..

2010-05-09T02:18:00.002+08:00

i promise u,
i will stay strong..
as strong as the above picture that i've shown..
although tears keep flowing out non stop,
but whatever that happens before,
its will be just a past..
i will not forget,
but i will definately put in storage and stay strong..
was happy that we part and wave happily without tears..
byye..

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享
你远远的关心其实更长

21st old old update.. LOL!

2010-05-09T01:30:00.006+08:00

yeah!!
its finally and so finally its weekends..
(*sweat) finally i can take a break..
im like so finally updating n uploading my 21st birthday photos..
mmm.. (this is the few that i have choose to post)
thanks to JJ for helping in taking the photos..

so much to update..

2010-05-05T21:44:00.003+08:00

okies..
ive got so much to update,
but due to time constrain,
i should do it short n sweet..

firstly,
i have celebrated my 21st birthday on 2nd may to 4th may,
n i did really enjoy it to the max!!
thanks to everyone who make the effort to come
and give me all the surprise..
thankss...!!
love u pp to the max..
give u pp a muacks!

and im here to promote a newly launched blogshop,
its called:
http://tiffanycrush.livejournal.com
(:
thank u..

okies,
shall update when im free on weekends..
kinda tired right now..
night earthlings.. (:

我只能够在部落格上
路过你快乐悲伤
我承认有些话当时没老实讲
那么坏人就让我来当
我承认有些话当时若老实讲
现在就不会两败俱伤

ahh-ha

2010-04-29T18:19:00.002+08:00

i miss the time in school so much..!
i miss the time where we gathered to study for exams together..!
i miss the time we fool around in school..!
i miss the time we bitch here and there about everything..!
I MISS MY NYP FRENS SO MUCH )':
the below picture is taken when we had the last paper in NYP..
tingting n me playing while revising for the exam..
trying to c if my mirror is bigger than out face not..

):
i miss school life so much..
i miss bitching with all of them..

had sakae with meii n xuan yesterday..
as meii promised me,
before i turn 21,
should have my last privileged on sakae lunch buffet..
after that,
went bugis with meii, and i've spend so much ):
GOD!!!

以前要得不是这种以后
感动被生活辗过
爱情就磨成了寂寞