hrhuirong

its ending.
2010 is ending soon.
seriously hoping 2011 comes earlier.
got so much to do yet unfulfilled it during 2010.
felt totally disappointed and missing out all chances I had.
if you asked me what is the chances i've missed out,
answer will be PLENTY!


for those who have follow me throughout the journey,
hereby thanks you people for everything.
state of mind hasn't been in a proper ones,
especially recently.
(those who read my tweets or status will know alittle)


got so drained up especially when one is fighting against emotions.
ought to learn to stand up by my own,
ought to stop getting affected by him,
ought to choose to treat myself better although life isn't fair.
i have to reset the button in life and reset my life.
currently,
life to me is such a bitch and bastard.
i wonder if i should slow down or fast up my pace,
slowing down seems like i've been wasting enough time ever since then,
fast up seems like if i didn't do it well, life will continues it bitch ways.
totally a contradicting one.


i didn't want to waste my time again,
life been max mundane,
doing things repeatedly again and again,
seems totally dumb.
despite knowing that its dumb,
mind and heart just don't coordinate together.
admit im such a fickle person!
got to experience life differently starting from 2011.
after hearing what my friends told me regarding that issue,
got so depress till the max that kept repeating it to xj-meii.
definitely know that i cant be the same like her,
but,
i just cant stop myself from getting depressed!


its always easy to say than to applying it into actions.
always didn't want to admit that im totally a failure in some part of my life,
but recently,
i admit that im one.


to be honest,
whenever people tell me about the problems they had for r/s.
i didn't know how to console or give a better suggestions.
can only listen and talk whenever i did went through the situation,
else, stay quiet or will say this,
i cant understand how exactly you felt, but don't because of tiny mini stuffs and quarrel.
treasure what you have.
funny huh?
why didn't i understand this term earlier when im younger?
only up till recent years then i fully understood this sentence


hopefully life will be better in 2011.
not be a bitch/bastard ones in the new coming year for me.
since dad and mum didn't forbid my decisions this time round,
shall start my planning and starting up soon before any changes was made.
hope it will be a smooth and great ones.
i need lots of encouragement this time round.
can everyone give me their encouragement/blessing.
good luck to everyone in 2011.
(: