this is not the link to the emo post.. but, is what happen within few hours today..

know whats the funny thing when u r sitting down and stating in space..?
its not about the shedding of tears, nor about the past memories..
its the way people look at u, sitting at one corner and staring at a lamppost..
doing nothing but just simply staring u see..


waited for merely 2 hours, n slowly when time goes by,
nobody notice your presence whenever they walked pass..
at that point of time, what came across my mind is,
"have i become invisible?" (LOL)
maybe at times, people tend to forget the presence of someone,
and causing the person to be invisible i guess luhs..


and know what, when u stood up and start to leave,
u fell down and nobody's there to give u a helping hand,
the feeling totally stinks like shit ok.. (and it really sthinks ok!)
and when u get up by yourself, u realised your leg became so heavy that u have to drag it..
and i mean really drag it yah..
and suddenly everything became a burden to u,
esp when you're carrying so much stuffs and dragging your feet back..
at that point of time, u saw another place that allows u to rest..
but the feeling became so different..
have no idea if its because,
your feet became so heavy or is it because everything just seems to go wrong..
and things seems to be fading off slowly in front of u..
n till then, u realised that,
maybe u're really invisible in everyone's eyes..
and maybe to them, u're no longer alive..


started to walk back again, n there, u see so many stairs that needed to be climb..
and at the same time ur leg becomes a burden to u..
u will definately feel like,
might as well just give up walking up and just fall back at whichever steps that u're in..
(seriously, thats what really came across my mind)


when u realise, from the place that u start the staring process back to your house,
is just such a short distance,
and u took merely another 1 hour just to reach home,
then u will start to think if something went wrong with your leg..?
or isit because u totally have no strength n no idea on how to move on..?
things that seems to be really simple became so tough..
as if it has tougher itself by double or even million times..
then u start to sit down again at one corner,
touching your knee, rubbing it and think if everything u're doing is right or even worthwhile not..
and u went back staring in the space again,
tears and frustration is what u have..


and know what..?
suddenly, there's people who starts sitting down as if u're not there,
n they just laughed off so loudly..
it then make u realise that,
"wow, im truely a invisible human being.."
a living human being yet to be visible in others eyes..
n when u start walking off, they didnt even realised that u've left..
(seriously, do i really look so invisible to u pp?)